Just so you know

It’s not that I’m not writing.

It’s just that the writing is going down in notebooks, and on electronic note-cards on NoodleBib, and on application forms. And also, there are some changes happening around here in this blog space – so pardon my appearance as I shift to my own domain.  -Or that is lack of appearance.  I’ll be around for the next ten days or so – just not so much at a regular interval, and not so much with the writing – more of the quipping and the noticing – maybe the haiku’ing.

Just so you know, I’ll be back – this is not a case of the Little Hater – I promise.

On doing things

I do things — I mean — you do things too – We all do things –

Today I made ginger syrup and lemon syrup, so I can flavor the soda water I make with my Soda Stream.  And I went to a birthday party, and I kept the kids sane, and I thought about the present I needed to finish making for the kiddo whose birthday party it was.

Something I’ve been meaning to do all week

So – I didn’t blog all year-long.    I did blog every day till I started back to work and I did though – blog 273 days. I’m okay with this. In the course of New Year resolutions – I did pretty okay with this one.  In the meantime, I’ve gained a smidge of readership, and some sort of voice – and a bonus bit of confidence in my writing.

I thought for fun, I might make a few lists as I get back around in the new years swing of things.  I would like to tell you I’m immune to the freshness of a new calendar laid out in front of me – blank with possibility.  But I’m not  – not even a little bit –  though, granted, because I’m a teacher, my calendar has two beginning and endings a year, and two moments of planning and reflection.

Blog 253 – Oh hey, I’m still here.

So for 253 days I blogged every day – okay every day but four.  And then Monday, Monday I went to bed at 8pm, and then again on Tuesday, and then it had been two days of skipping school work, so Wednesday I was grading, and Thursday I had my first board meeting for MotherWoman, and Friday we went shopping, and then it was today, and it had been nearly a week since I had written. And it’s not that I don’t have anything to write, it’s just it’s all muddled. Politics, and mommying, and family stuff, and valley stuff, and working versus staying home, and thoughts about my pre-frontal cortex, it’s all wrapped up in a semi-neurotic tangle of words and sentences and half done paragraphs.

I have a line about my gramma, and a paragraph at being a work out of the home mama, and how that is only possible, because I have the most amazing co-parenting dad around, who happens to be my husband.   I have an acronym about my pre-frontal cortex, and three syllables about MotherWoman.  And oh politics, I could give you seven pages, but I’ve found that bat-shit crazy just about covers it all.

When I started out committing to write every day -it was partly a challenge and partly an exercise in sanity.  And while it would be great to get to 365, and hell, I didn’t think I would get to 30, I’ve been thinking more about what I want this spot to be, and I don’t want to write just to get something on the page. Further, I don’t want to resent this space, or even writing.  So yah, I might  have fewer posts, but perhaps not less to say.

62 of 365 – I want to thank you . . .

.  .   .for reading – about my weather updates, and my mama moments –  Thanks for reading my ridiculous letters to no one . Thank you for reading about my love of the Valley, and my love of pop culture nonsense.  Thanks for reading haikus – Thank you for the last sixty plus days of reading. Thank you.  And because collectively, you’ve stopped by over 2000 times since Jan 1 – and have pushed me to keep writing, Today – something I’ve written, has been published by someone else for the first time.

Tara’s first published elsewhere piece.

So – Thank you!

habit forming – 27 of 365

some sun, some clouds.  temperature at 11:15pm,  29°

Today – I’m just going to be proud of myself, for taking a time every day to do a little writing.  It’s a struggle for my brain to be still enough to sit and write, and spend time on paragraph upon paragraph, but I’ve been doing it now for almost four weeks .  21 days to form a habit, and here I am getting over 27.

plans – 4 of 365

sunny. blustery. temperature at 10:42, 19°

I don’t do good with routine, or habits, or following through.  But- here on day four I’m feeling accomplished,  I even have plans.